"Your story is mind-blowing. You have shown amazing resiliency and have wrestled demons no one should ever face. Thank you so much for your courage in showing your path. It will help so many. "
First, I Believe You
Chapter 1: Don’t Go To Sleep 3
Chapter 2: Really Splendid 5
Chapter 3: Silhouette 9
Chapter 4: Who I Admired Most 13
Chapter 5: Nourishment 19
Chapter 6: In the Closet 30
Chapter 7: Between Dolls and Boys 32
Chapter 8: Nothing Really Happened 36
Chapter 9: The Family Stew 41
Chapter 10: An Alcoholic 45
Chapter11: Scouts Honor 48
Chapter 12: Another Perspective 53
Chapter 13: Deliriously Happy 58
Chapter 14: Love On a Battlefield 60
Chapter 15: You’ll Like It 67
Chapter 16: Just the Three Of Us 71
Chapter 17: Launching 78
Chapter 18: Clear Sailing 87
Chapter 19: Tell Me More 92
Chapter 20: One Beginning, One Ending 96
Chapter 21: Get Out of My Life 103
Chapter 22: My Children Endangered 112
Chapter 23: Caving In 115
Chapter 24: Please Help Me 121
Chapter 25: Leftovers 128
Chapter 26: The Devastating Truth 133
Chapter 27: There is Always Light 141
Chapter 28: Pound, Scream, Cry 146
Chapter 29: Who Am I? 153
Chapter 30: Touching Me 159
Chapter 31: The Stranger in the Doorway 162
Chapter 32: I Can’t Breathe 168
Chapter 33: No Greater Honor 173
Chapter 34: You’re a Liar 180
Chapter 35: Not My Kids 184
Chapter36: Go Outside 187
Chapter 37: Nothing but a Good Father 190
Chapter 38: Law Flaws 200
Chapter 39: Someone Else Did It 208
Chapter 41: Finding My Voice 222
Chapter 42: Everyone’s a Stranger 226
Chapter 43: Friendly Advice 231
Chapter 44: No One Noticed 235
Chapter 45: Children to Raise 239
Chapter 46: In Defense of Pedophiles 239
Chapter 47: Two Tall Trees 244
Chapter 48: Doctor to Doctor 252
Chapter 49: Innocence Forgiven 268
Chapter 50: They Get It 272
Chapter 51: New Treatments 280
Chapter 52: This Never Happened 283
Chapter 53: Reaching Out 296
Chapter 54: The Whole Story 300
Chapter 55: Drowning in Self-Doubt 303
Chapter 56: Just Diet 308
Chapter 57: Flippers 316
Chapter 58: It Wasn’t Your Fault 319
Chapter 59: Death Without Dignity 323
Chapter 60: Another Perp 327
Chapter 61: Raising My Voice 331
Chapter 62: Safe Now 333
Epilogue 340
References 345